An Unfamiliar Face.

The unfamiliar face that is my own, is becoming less recognizable everyday. I used to be so sure of everything within and around me, but as time goes by i realize that i know less than what i thought. Truth to this: I have so muc to learn, i just hope im sent the right teacher. && if not the right teacher, i hope im given the discernment to distinguish between the right and wrong roads.

Overall, yesterday was a good day, hair did, gradauation festivities, love, love, love.

&& im begininning to truly see whos been in my corner all along, and who has who nvr cared.

My Heart Hurts...

"It's unlikely I'll remember where I was when I heard that he died, but like millions of people, I won't ever forget that he was one of those rare people who reminds us, with every note and every move, what it is to be alive. "

-Kevin Van Valkenburg

R.I.P. Mr. Jackson

Maybe?

"The world is a comedy to those that think, a tragedy to those that feel. "

-Horace Walpole

But what about those of us who do both?

To Whom it May Concern,

Love,

Brandi Simone

12:00 AM

&& its officially NOT fathers day anymore. I bought that nigga a card, but i still havent given it to him, primarily because i don't know what to say. So much animosity between us, but I'll be on my own in a minute [OHIO on AUGUST 19] and part of me thinks that reconciliation is in order. Hmm, but we all know what the other part says: fuck it.

12:07on another note, everyone should listen to: coldplay, jet, secondhand serenade, oasis && mat kearney.

12:15Why are there so many fckn kids at my house? i sware my mom thinks shes Mother Teresea. Sike, my mom tears that ass up every chance she gets.

12:28 But really, this is what i have to say:

So i've been thinking about myself, trying to figure out why i do the shit i do. && its crazy because i dont rember half of the past four years of my life. everything is a blur, is it because i can't remember? or simply because i choose not to? pieces of me i might not ever get to know, i guess they don't matter anyway. pieces of me i know too well, i i wish i'd nvr met them.

and i realize its 1:00 AM, what can i say im easily distracted.

The Truth.

"Out of all the thing i've ever lost, i miss my M I N D the most."

where'd it go? it left when you did.

Dear Blog,

I haven't been completely honest with you, everyday i get on here, type some personal shit, adn never pulish it. But i promise, i'll change, first thing tomo.

transferring.

i sacrificed a lot for ppl who never cared
but even through the bullshit im still here
still a happy young balla' and you cant change that
still no need for for me brag about it you can check my STATS
there is love behind my music, truth beneath my words
might not be the best things ever spoken, but they're the best you've ever heard

smh?

wtf, so i just found out what that meant today. maybe im a loser idgaf anywho, my paranoia has GOT to stop. its gotten to thee point where i don't check my emails anymore, i don't check my phone messages, && i jump when my phone vibrates. maybe if i would just do what im supposed to do, shit wouldn't be like this, but i don't and they are so for i'll just be smh.

*shakingmyhead.

so this is what its like?

utter happiness,

and no words could possibly express

the JOY i feel.

Impossible,

It's impossible
It's impossible to love you
If you don't let me know what you're feeling
It's impossible for me to give you what you need
If you're always hidin' from me

I don't know what hurt you I just,
I wanna make it right Cos boy
I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind

It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible
If you makin' it this way

Impossible to make it easy
If you always tryin' to make it so damn hard
How can I, how can I give you all my love,
baby If you're always, always puttin' up your guard

This is not a circus
Don't you play me for a clown
How long can emotions keep on goin' up and down

*ya, keep singing to me.