open your eyes.

some people are blind physically
but some simply choose not to see
look at the other side you'll agree

The Lovely Bones

"Inside the snow globe on my father's desk, there was a penguin wearing a red-and-white-striped scarf. The penguin was alone in there, I thought, and I worried for him. When I told my father this, he said, "Don't worry, Susie; he has a nice life. He's trapped in a perfect world."" -Alice Sebold

oo alice, you slay me

Reading.

So, i've read about 2 books in the last three days. bueno bueno bueno. see there's thing ideology in my life that whenever im going through something, i can pick up a book and basically read my life to myself. as if the author sat down with me personally&& asked me questions for the point of jotting my life down into a 300 paged novel. the first book flyy girl it was bomb, a little racy here and there but thats life, well my life ;]..and then there was Dreamland, lots of white people i normally wouldn't read about them but this story as just as bomb

but wait..

why did homegirl get beat up by her man in flyy girl?
why did caitlin fall in love with a guy who almost killed her in Dreamland?
why did chris brown beat rihanna?

this is not a laughing matter, if the books i indulge in have something to do with domestic violence, and theres a strong correlation between what i am and what i read, i might be in trouble, off to tae kwon doe class.

&& the next post will be the best post.

Someone Else.

ok, so this is gonna sound extremely emo but i don't care.

i finally realize
why we accept deceit and lies from those we despise
with only the intentions of our demise
no on wants to be alone
walking through an empty home
even the independent aren't isolation prone
they say they have it all when they're all by themselves
but the truth remains all they want is someone else
sometimes solitude is sanity often mistaken for vanty
but every heart needs another so be that someone else for me
for he
for she
for we

be that someone else for me

Below The Heavens-Blu

Every man has his own heaven the difference is the way that he envision it
So if you make your heaven picture less
By the time you dieYou'll be driftin' in an imageless field
So build your heaven full of blessed thoughtsThat's real,
you can stress it or just let it walkI got a question if a man can make his own heaven
Can he make his path to get to it too?I only spit through a truth
And I spit it for the listeners So I'm spittin' to you
You say it's hellI say it's bullshit we getting through
Just think about it every man has his own heaven
But shit you gotta' go through hell to be a man first
And understand firstHell is what you choose to call the present
That's why you're going through itI just choose to call it stressin'
To tell you fools the truthI don't feel that why I'm destined
So you can call it hell but bro
I'll just say I'm below the heavens

deeepp.

Tell It.

"You'd better tell Your story fast
And if you lie It will come to pass" -Stevie Wonder

speak the truth please
for your own good
not mine.

DeleteButton.

Sometimes i wish there was one on the keyboard of life. See there's the ENTER button, when new people come into you life, thats the button they press. && then there's the SHIFT button, thats the button you use when realize stupidity and move on to the next phase of the online game you're playing. There's the SPACE button, when you let the people in your life know that sometimes solitude is the closest thing to sanity. There's the CONTROL  button,  when things are getting out of hand, thats the button you press. The BACKSPACE button is most likely the closest thing i've got to the DELETE button, but its a lot less harsher. It's the button people use when they've made a mistake && they're trying to revise their lives. 
But thee DELETE button, now i've searched my keyboard of life inch by inch && its nowhere to be found. If you've got one, ill buy it off of you because I'm in dire need. Let's see if there were such button, i'd delete a lot of people. For various, strong persons reasons. I'd delete them and then go the the recycle bin and empty it.
It's quite ironic though, no matter how many times you press the BACKSPACE button, there are somethings and situations that will never be erased. Even if i emptied the recycle bin, there's always a way to relocate the lost files. I'd pretty much have to break my computer to leave it all behind.
So i guess there's no point for the DELETE button. I'm just gonna have to use the RESTART button and hope that my mindset changes about certain situations and people
IM GETTING OVER IT.

Complexity- The Roots

I used to come into the party
And stand around
'Cuz I was kinda too shy to really get down
I used to, play the corner
And watch the scene
Deep down, knowing I wanted, to find me a queen
And I can feel that in my stomach
And up in my chest
Because I knew a lot of women, and some was fresh
But then I found you, girl and just like me
You had a heart that was yearning to be set free
Now listen
See you and me need to take the time
To erase any doubt that's inside your mind
Its not a mountain that I'm ever too tired to climb
And who's counting? - But I know at least a thousand times
I let you know I'm here for you, care for you, and confide in you
Break bread, share with you and provide for you
And that's full time - it's no 9 to 5 with you
That's why I'm tryin' to work it out with you
(Let's go.)

Follow.

It's decision making time but i've decided to follow the advice i gave today:

Follow Jesus

Follow your Heart

&& if your Hearts with Him

its all the same anyhow

&&  the next post will be the best post.

At a Loss.

I feel so much, there's so much on my mind. But it's as if no amount of words or phrases could possibly come together to describe how i feel. I'm all over the place, I'm in too deep, I'm almost done, I'm L O S T.

 

TruthToThat.

"Sometimes your biggest disappointments come from your so called friends." George W. Bush.

Poetic Justice.

Tupac Lives. Some people are just talented. He was a lyricist, a poet, an activist, an actor. He was beautiful, he is beautiful. The mark of a true artist, when your work outlives you, you've done a great job.

As for Janet, she seems to be able to reinvent herself without losing the essence of who she truly is.

Music.

That one song embodies every emotion that i have ever felt or wanted to feel in my lifetime && i'll put in on repeat, go to sleep, && wake up singing it, feeling it. Sing it to me, play it for me, sympathize with me, empathize  for me, laugh with me, cry with me. This song does it all. Funny, i haven't heard it yet.