Invincible.

 Sorta, how i felt today. Things were good, things were really bad, but all in all, today was a pleasant day. Our first league win, lots of stimulating conversations, and realizing that I deserve better than what i was willing to settle for. I think about K A R M A,  and i laugh, an evil laugh to be specific. In due time, it will come to those who've chopped and screwed me. && no doubt, I'm gonna get mine too, but thats cool, i'll still laugh. HAHAAHA. Life is a roller-coaster: ups & downs, lefts & rights, jolts & JERKS. Currently, i'm loving the part im on right now. Whose to say tomo won't be shitty as f u c k, but tomo i'll still have my yesterday to fall back on. && the next post shall be the best post.

Where Am I?

Where's my head at? Just because you're scoring points doesn't mean you're having a good game. I don't know what's  wrong with me, my confusion is making me really unhappy. There i was... but where am i now?  I needed to get my shit together, like yesterday. Where's his love at, i used to feel it. Where's my conscious at i used to hear it. Where's my heart at, i used to follow it. Things have already fallen apart, so I'm guessing its time for bette things to fall into place. I thought i knew, but obviously i don't. && thee next post shall be thee best post.

peace.

Time After Time.

"Losing makes me stronger, 

winning makes me invincible." -Michael Beasley 

When i fall, I'm gonna get up. Time After Time. And for those trying to trip me, you will not prosper, && baby thats a promise.

L O V E.

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
 --St. Augustine

Burning.

"Instead of fighting to keep the fire inside of you alive, you let the embers die by becoming addicted to a life without dreams, without hope." Sometimes i question my dreams, will they come true? In a world full of broken promises, dreaming seems like setting myslef up for more discouragemnet. But by becoming my dream, i would hope that they would never leave me, because i know i'll be let down. Its apart of life i suppose. Don't stop dreaming. Dream with closed eyes and an open heart

R A I N.

Its gonna rain today.I love the rain. more than i love the sunshine. or the wind, or the stars. i love the rain. It doesn't rain too much in southern CA, and i think thats why i love it. "You'll never know the sunshine without the rain." Truth to that, but i believe that the sun needs the rain more, it doesn't want to be burnt out, literally. So i love it. This picture is beautiful, agreed?

There's A Thousand Words That i Could Say

Truly, there are just some things i don't understand. Maybe i don't understand because i choose not to, but nonetheless: i don't get it. People spend their whole lives building up their character only to succumb to the "sweet nothings" that are just that: N O T H I N G. Oo, don't get it, I'm talking about relationships, the things people do for LOVE, what is that anyway? Maybe you can chalk my curiosity up to thee fact that I've never had that type of relationship, but i don't have to experience it to speak about it, right? Back to my point, my perplexity stems from the fact that people will go through leaps and bounds to be with someone who most likely doesn't even deserve them. Hmmph, maybe one day i'll understand. I just pray that when i do decide to rendezvous, that i'm smart with my shit. Asking for too much? Are relationships really that complex that they have to bring so much D R A M A;;D E C E I T F U L N E S S;; and A N G E R?"Brandi, they bring all that and more." [I'm quoting myself] But i guess no one wants to be alone. I shall refer back to this post when i love finds me. && the next post will be the best post.

peace.

I've Arrived.

"Brandi you should get a blogspot", "no seriously you'd love it" SIKE no one said that to me but when you ain't got shit to do you gotta find some shit to doso i guess im gonna use this tool to TRY and type everything i cant.refuse.hate to say && even if no one reads this ish it wont matter 'cuz uhh i just gotta get some things off 'ma C  H E S T.  the next post will be thee best post.

peace.